Not even a few hours after the first post and the reality of the situation is already hitting me. Also, I want to mention that I'm an alcoholic and I stopped drinking on May 14, 2025, and I will say, alcoholism is a problem and alcoholics cannot drink and will never be able to drink again.
But one thing to note is that with getting off of alcohol, everything to me has been extremely surreal, and adjusting to everything is different. I have been drinking, and when I say drinking, I mean binge drinking every night, since August 2015. I do attend AA twice a week.
But the surreal nature of getting off alcohol after 10 years of drinking along with losing your best friend, has been very hard to bear. I don't take things like these that well, as I don't see why I can't talk to someone who is alive and well. As close as we were, my brain just doesn't comprehend. All the memories we shared to things we never got to do or discuss to the lack of closure in the end has and will continue to rain a hell down on me.
Also, on another note (and as it's already early in the morning), I bought a 2025 Toyota Tundra yesterday and go pick it up today, so I better get some sleep so I can get there early.
Night world.